to be honest

today marks the half way point to this journey in maryland in farmland. i really have had a great time out here. i have elarned so much already and its only half over. one thingthat i have found though, is that with literaly nothing else to do in the day besides work, i want to do nothing else except work. i want to work 12 hour days, no matter how exhausting. i mean, i'm not on the farm this weekend but with anotehr aunt and uncle, and i fucking hate free time. give me the 5 am to 7 pm day waith two breaks. i need the money, and i feel lonely as fuck and miss people when i'm not.

my 4th was for the first tiem fireworkless. and i got three ticks on three things that ticks should never be on.