Saturday, March 28, 2009
Friday, March 27, 2009
Monday, March 23, 2009
stress
i think i've been a stressed out person in denial. every single break, after teh intensity of the quarter, i find my self able to relax, and realize that i wasn't for the longest time. its crazy and i can't seem to explain in to myself, but i think i finally know what stress really feels like because i feel like i finally know what not stressing is. fucking school man. glad to have a break.
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Saturday, March 14, 2009
fading away?
its interesting to see things fade away ratehr than have an explosive ending. when ever i've thought abotu friendships ending, quarters ending, schoole nding, trips ending, life ending, i always imagine a huge emotionally filled explosive event to end them. and its curious to see things, liek friendships right now, just fade away into the grain of life. so cliche, yes yes yes, i agree. but man, when you see it happen its really crazy.
on a similar and unrelated note, is it better to a) not have it at all 2) have it in a diluted form for a short time 3) have it fully concentrated for a short time?. i can't decide, but then again if you don't have the decision to make, do you just roll with it or do you just end it?
on a similar and unrelated note, is it better to a) not have it at all 2) have it in a diluted form for a short time 3) have it fully concentrated for a short time?. i can't decide, but then again if you don't have the decision to make, do you just roll with it or do you just end it?
mice parade
how can one band that you never thought was that amazing, totally own on your life? i got this band from josh two years ago.
it started with 'Obrigado Saudade'
and i had just that album for so long, maybe too long. josh, alex w-f and I saw them at bottom of the hill like one of the last weeks of freshman year. i thoguth it was an ok show, but i didn't recognize one of their songs. but they were fun i think. i don't know, i guess i wasn't down. but this year I downloaded 'Bem-Vinda Vontade'.
i hated it at first. it was so poppy, so hooky compared to the last one. but oh how the album has grown like a rotten fetus (?) on me. i'm so down with it, its ridiculous. its god great drumming, its not loud like zach hill or like math rock. its very precise and intricate at times, but he just throws teh snare drum on random beats with little fills here in there, and oh how i would love to be a drummer with a sense of time like him! its so good. the singing has gotten better across the albums. its a bit blase like quasi in a sense. emotionless, yet singing of emotion things at time. never screaming, never eally loud. just kind of talking narrating. Kria brekkan is on a few songs on every album, and they are always excellent. and there are vibs, and otehr percussive mallet instruments. i'm so down. and classical style guitar! not always, but its nylon string with gives it a very different vibe. the guy who made this band is adam pierce, and he was a drummer first i think. how cool would that be if i got on top of my shit enough to make music liek this adam does one day. i'm listening to the second album now. and it has even more electronic keyboards and noises going. i'm so down with this band! i think ya'll shoudl get on this, because its such good music that is not known about at all!!
it started with 'Obrigado Saudade'
and i had just that album for so long, maybe too long. josh, alex w-f and I saw them at bottom of the hill like one of the last weeks of freshman year. i thoguth it was an ok show, but i didn't recognize one of their songs. but they were fun i think. i don't know, i guess i wasn't down. but this year I downloaded 'Bem-Vinda Vontade'.
i hated it at first. it was so poppy, so hooky compared to the last one. but oh how the album has grown like a rotten fetus (?) on me. i'm so down with it, its ridiculous. its god great drumming, its not loud like zach hill or like math rock. its very precise and intricate at times, but he just throws teh snare drum on random beats with little fills here in there, and oh how i would love to be a drummer with a sense of time like him! its so good. the singing has gotten better across the albums. its a bit blase like quasi in a sense. emotionless, yet singing of emotion things at time. never screaming, never eally loud. just kind of talking narrating. Kria brekkan is on a few songs on every album, and they are always excellent. and there are vibs, and otehr percussive mallet instruments. i'm so down. and classical style guitar! not always, but its nylon string with gives it a very different vibe. the guy who made this band is adam pierce, and he was a drummer first i think. how cool would that be if i got on top of my shit enough to make music liek this adam does one day. i'm listening to the second album now. and it has even more electronic keyboards and noises going. i'm so down with this band! i think ya'll shoudl get on this, because its such good music that is not known about at all!!
life post
so i'm about to break down some thoughts and feelings and life right now, which i don't feel like i've done here in a while. anyways, there is a lot on my mind right now, lets make a list.
-picking up housemate and best bud Alex from the airport in twenty two hours! he's been in chile romping around in Patagonia and what not for teh past quarter, and i miss him dearly, and I'm so excited to pick him up.
-went to apply for my visa in downtown san francisco with my other housie scott thursday, and shit is getting so real with this japan thing! man, going to the consolate was liek the most miniscule taste of japan, but can i even begin to tell you how nervous and scared I am? I'm glad everyone is excited for me, because i don't think i can be at this time, which is silly to say, but what else can i say?! man, its going to be a total life changer.
-i totally feel like small town country-esque boy, especially when i went to san francisco. i've gotten so cozy and happy in santa cruz, that just beign downtown for 30 minutes wa soverwhelming. Scott and I were totally being silly and lost and people were totally giving us flannel and jeans wearing freaks werid looks and it was so obvious that were are not urbanites. yet i'm going to a pretty urban place ( i think). man, i am going to miss santa cruz for sure.
-finals? man, week 10 cashed. its time to prepare for my music theory lab where i need to sing, play piano, and sight sing too! man, hpw much music has been learned by me is too much for life I feel like. i can't believe how musical this year has been. I knew it was going to be, but i am so happy it has been. and it coudl have been even more musical, but damn, i own a fucking guitar and am taking it to japan! what?! who knew, certainly not me.
-spring spring spring. oh how love is in thy air. i love teh season so much. I am happy to see everyoen come each time. this winter has been a good one. its been rough at times, but i've enjoyed it. so cliche, all this all is, but i don't care cause its true to me. i'm excited to see the spring time come. i'm sad to miss it in santa cruz, cause it will be amazing here, as always. and i'm sad i can't let something blossom here in santa cruz, but thats ok. i think it will just have to blossom at another time. beggers can't be choosers. but maybe i'm not a begger. oh god fuck cliches.
-straight petrified about japan. one thing thats been on my mind is how american i'm going to seem slash how much am I going to be ostracized for who I am and how i'm different from everyone there. i imagine totally flipping out at people and just screaming "this is who i fucking am, don't tell me how to live my life". but is that not american? is it culturally based? oh god sociology, how you give me a headache so often. i just want to find loving accepting people in japan.
-the old friends, teh new ones, the barely friends, and the friend si wish i had more time to spend with.i will miss them of so god damn dearly. i think thats what i will most. the peopel i love here in santa cruz. that is what filsl me up, thats what makes me happy in this town.
-my life is totally going to get owned on in japan. or just my life perspective. and thats wkind of why i wanted to go to such a far away place, get soem context on my americanness, my whiteness, my life, my reality. see how other people see me and my culture and just life. oh man, who knows what the future holds!
-picking up housemate and best bud Alex from the airport in twenty two hours! he's been in chile romping around in Patagonia and what not for teh past quarter, and i miss him dearly, and I'm so excited to pick him up.
-went to apply for my visa in downtown san francisco with my other housie scott thursday, and shit is getting so real with this japan thing! man, going to the consolate was liek the most miniscule taste of japan, but can i even begin to tell you how nervous and scared I am? I'm glad everyone is excited for me, because i don't think i can be at this time, which is silly to say, but what else can i say?! man, its going to be a total life changer.
-i totally feel like small town country-esque boy, especially when i went to san francisco. i've gotten so cozy and happy in santa cruz, that just beign downtown for 30 minutes wa soverwhelming. Scott and I were totally being silly and lost and people were totally giving us flannel and jeans wearing freaks werid looks and it was so obvious that were are not urbanites. yet i'm going to a pretty urban place ( i think). man, i am going to miss santa cruz for sure.
-finals? man, week 10 cashed. its time to prepare for my music theory lab where i need to sing, play piano, and sight sing too! man, hpw much music has been learned by me is too much for life I feel like. i can't believe how musical this year has been. I knew it was going to be, but i am so happy it has been. and it coudl have been even more musical, but damn, i own a fucking guitar and am taking it to japan! what?! who knew, certainly not me.
-spring spring spring. oh how love is in thy air. i love teh season so much. I am happy to see everyoen come each time. this winter has been a good one. its been rough at times, but i've enjoyed it. so cliche, all this all is, but i don't care cause its true to me. i'm excited to see the spring time come. i'm sad to miss it in santa cruz, cause it will be amazing here, as always. and i'm sad i can't let something blossom here in santa cruz, but thats ok. i think it will just have to blossom at another time. beggers can't be choosers. but maybe i'm not a begger. oh god fuck cliches.
-straight petrified about japan. one thing thats been on my mind is how american i'm going to seem slash how much am I going to be ostracized for who I am and how i'm different from everyone there. i imagine totally flipping out at people and just screaming "this is who i fucking am, don't tell me how to live my life". but is that not american? is it culturally based? oh god sociology, how you give me a headache so often. i just want to find loving accepting people in japan.
-the old friends, teh new ones, the barely friends, and the friend si wish i had more time to spend with.i will miss them of so god damn dearly. i think thats what i will most. the peopel i love here in santa cruz. that is what filsl me up, thats what makes me happy in this town.
-my life is totally going to get owned on in japan. or just my life perspective. and thats wkind of why i wanted to go to such a far away place, get soem context on my americanness, my whiteness, my life, my reality. see how other people see me and my culture and just life. oh man, who knows what the future holds!
Saturday, March 7, 2009
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
concert gods, why have you forsaken me!
1) beirut
2) animal collective (thrice over)
3) m. ward
4) fleet foxes
5) ratatat
6) autolux
7) devendra banhart
8) mirah
9)tv on teh radio
10) grizzly bear
11) blink 182 (?)
japan better be pretty sweet
2) animal collective (thrice over)
3) m. ward
4) fleet foxes
5) ratatat
6) autolux
7) devendra banhart
8) mirah
9)tv on teh radio
10) grizzly bear
11) blink 182 (?)
japan better be pretty sweet
Sunday, March 1, 2009
ah yes, m. ward
One
One
One
One or two won't do
Cos I want it all
And a sip
A sip
A sip or a spoonful won't do
No, I want it all
And I hope
I hope
Hope you know what I'm thinking of
I want all of your love
I need all of your love
She said "If love
If Love
Is a posion cup
Then drink it up"
"Cos a sip
A sip
Or a spoonful won't do
Won't do nothing for you
Except mess you up"
And I hope
I hope
Hope you know what this means
I'm gonna give you everything
I'm gonna give you everything
One
One
One or two won't do
Cos I want it all
And a sip
A sip
A sip or a spoonful won't do
No, I want it all
And I hope
I hope
Hope you know what I'm thinking of
I want all of your love
I need all of your love
She said "If love
If Love
Is a posion cup
Then drink it up"
"Cos a sip
A sip
Or a spoonful won't do
Won't do nothing for you
Except mess you up"
And I hope
I hope
Hope you know what this means
I'm gonna give you everything
I'm gonna give you everything
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