-picking up housemate and best bud Alex from the airport in twenty two hours! he's been in chile romping around in Patagonia and what not for teh past quarter, and i miss him dearly, and I'm so excited to pick him up.
-went to apply for my visa in downtown san francisco with my other housie scott thursday, and shit is getting so real with this japan thing! man, going to the consolate was liek the most miniscule taste of japan, but can i even begin to tell you how nervous and scared I am? I'm glad everyone is excited for me, because i don't think i can be at this time, which is silly to say, but what else can i say?! man, its going to be a total life changer.
-i totally feel like small town country-esque boy, especially when i went to san francisco. i've gotten so cozy and happy in santa cruz, that just beign downtown for 30 minutes wa soverwhelming. Scott and I were totally being silly and lost and people were totally giving us flannel and jeans wearing freaks werid looks and it was so obvious that were are not urbanites. yet i'm going to a pretty urban place ( i think). man, i am going to miss santa cruz for sure.
-finals? man, week 10 cashed. its time to prepare for my music theory lab where i need to sing, play piano, and sight sing too! man, hpw much music has been learned by me is too much for life I feel like. i can't believe how musical this year has been. I knew it was going to be, but i am so happy it has been. and it coudl have been even more musical, but damn, i own a fucking guitar and am taking it to japan! what?! who knew, certainly not me.
-spring spring spring. oh how love is in thy air. i love teh season so much. I am happy to see everyoen come each time. this winter has been a good one. its been rough at times, but i've enjoyed it. so cliche, all this all is, but i don't care cause its true to me. i'm excited to see the spring time come. i'm sad to miss it in santa cruz, cause it will be amazing here, as always. and i'm sad i can't let something blossom here in santa cruz, but thats ok. i think it will just have to blossom at another time. beggers can't be choosers. but maybe i'm not a begger. oh god fuck cliches.
-straight petrified about japan. one thing thats been on my mind is how american i'm going to seem slash how much am I going to be ostracized for who I am and how i'm different from everyone there. i imagine totally flipping out at people and just screaming "this is who i fucking am, don't tell me how to live my life". but is that not american? is it culturally based? oh god sociology, how you give me a headache so often. i just want to find loving accepting people in japan.
-the old friends, teh new ones, the barely friends, and the friend si wish i had more time to spend with.i will miss them of so god damn dearly. i think thats what i will most. the peopel i love here in santa cruz. that is what filsl me up, thats what makes me happy in this town.
-my life is totally going to get owned on in japan. or just my life perspective. and thats wkind of why i wanted to go to such a far away place, get soem context on my americanness, my whiteness, my life, my reality. see how other people see me and my culture and just life. oh man, who knows what the future holds!
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you have a distinct photographic style.
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